Stupidity

Ok so yes I tend to start it this way, it has been a while!

I am just going to vent this morning on my stupidity as I am the only one to blame if I get hurt. I can't belief that I am so stupid to get caught up on an online romance thing and then get hurt as well and where my stupidity comes in is that I believed that something like that can work!!!!
How fucking stupid can you get you might ask me so I will tell you. FUCKING STUPID!!!!!!!!
I think it went over the excitement of everything and those feelings that can be stirred and then you get caught up in the moment and start believing what people tell u. I personally belief people easily as I will say and do only what I mean, I think that is what catches a lot of people with me as I do what I say I will do.
I find it difficult to understand people that just say things without meaning them. If I make a promise I will keep it to the best of my ability and if I can't do it I will then say I can't.
So I got caught up in an online romance and I think because someone told me a few months back something like that will happen I actually created it in my sub conscious because I wanted it to happen.
I am now standing back and thinking that my declaration of loving being single and living on my own might be null and void as I so readily was going to give up everything in my life that I have and that I worked for to go to a country where I won't even understand the language!!! God I can just see myself trying to communicate and having to learn a new language at my age. Although they say u are never to old to learn but at the best of times I have a problem getting my tongue around certain words in Afrikaans and English now I have to try with a foreign language as well!
Luckily this did not go to far and I am sitting with a broken heart and lovely friends who will help me get over this and a life lesson that I will not forget in a hurry.
If I go back on a chat - keep it simple and fun and don't get involved except on a chat basis with anyone!!!!
Ok that is me for now I better start my day.
Have a lovely day!