Live Life

So last night was amazing and I was able to release some pent up energy and I feel great this morning. On the other hand I got an sms from lady at work to inform me that one of the other ladies at work who I also consider a wonderful friend lost her mother.

It makes you think about your own mortality. I know that when I die I want a party at my funeral in fact I don't want a funeral, just have a party and remember my life, my good points and bad points and then now that if you loved me I definitely loved you and I will be in your heart for ever and more.

I want my friends to celebrate my life, and celebrate the fact that I have taken the journey home and that I will come back in a new form to live, learn and grow again in order for our Creator to experience every experience he can on this plane, although I am planning on coming back as a dolphin in my next lifetime!

So to get back to last night, I took the plunge and invited my married friend over and I am not sorry I did. It was a wonderful experience and if it never happen again it is fine as well as I know I have made a stronger bond in our friendship.

I am able to share with him much more than other people and belief me I do not open up easily, I have even discovered I am inhibited writing my posts because I think that others will read it so I tend to not let go totally, I have decided I must work on this and will get better at it.

I am sad as one of the ladies who I work with is leaving us today and she is a wonderful teacher in being decisive and I have been learning from her. I can be strong headed but find it difficult to say no at times and I have to work on my not wanting to do unpleasant things as I know it stems from my insecurities and unworthiness that people might not like me if I do say no.

The joke is on me though because people then get the impression they can walk all over me and I think that is more horrid than people not liking me. So I have put in place that for a week I will say no to everything starting from Monday. Hahaha you might wonder why Monday? Well I am actually not seeing anyone this weekend and therefore it will be a waste of 2 days if I do it from today. Get my point of view now?

So I am going to have a very relaxing day at work, mourn my friends mother passing who was a grand old dame and then wish her well on her journey home, this will start in 3 days time when she has detached herself totally from her body.

So my thought for the day is have a blast and laugh a lot and know that you can only live life in the now as the past is gone and the present has not happened yet.

Be well and have a sunshine day :-)