Dark Holes

It is Wednesday and 19h44 and very cold, it is so cold you can freeze your tootsies if you're not careful!

I am alone and and sitting in this dark hole, it came creeping up on me Saturday 23rd of June from nowhere, no i lie it was not from nowhere I have felt it creeping up a week or two before hand but have decided to just ignore this feeling of utter despair coming my way. I did not want to admit that I am moving into a state of depression as it one of the feelings I hate! I am sure if you know depression you will agree with me it is the worst feeling in the world!

I am one of those irritating people that is always happy and smiling and when I turn into she-devil everyone is so shocked! hehehe they almost feel that you are out to get them. O pleeeeeaaazzzzeeee why waste time on them when I can just slit my wrist! they are so self centred.

I am wallowing in self pity now as I am in pain and can't stand it so I am sitting alone at home and ignoring all my friends who is spreading a rumour I am in hospital.

O well I am going to see how this blogging will make me feel and if I can just type the shit that pops into my head which might seem extremely inane at times but it could also be very releasing to just get my thoughts out there.

Well thats all for now from me, old sour puss, hey maybe I shoud rather have used that name as my usual name is to cutsy for this rambing.

Ok i am going now so have a great evening if you are in the mood for one.